Why do I never want to sleep. I don’t even know if it’s my insomnia, but I am refusing to take my sleeping pills. I want to be awake at all times. I don’t even know what I’m waiting for or scared I’m going to miss. I just feel like sleep is a waste of time. And the amount of coffee I’ve been drinking and lack of sleep and food I’ve been getting, is going to result in some kind of mental breakdown crash. So I guess I can start waiting on that.